For the last week, I have been praying harder and more frequently than I ever have in my life. Big changes, they seem to be headed this way.
Without going into too much detail (because Micah and I have sworn not to talk about it), I can tell you that big changes could be coming to our home in the very near future. Exciting changes that involve Micah's musical career. Scary changes that will change our lives, possibly forever. Lonely changes for the both of us. But worthwhile they will be, nonetheless.
I've come to the point where I had to ask myself if I meant what I said in my wedding vows. I promised to follow wherever Micah's musical path may lead. But now, when we're on the brink of something huge, can I really do it? I gave him my 'yes' in an instant, but then I spent several days thinking about it, praying about it.
I prayed for God to lead us down the right path, even if it won't be the easiest path. In fact, it may be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I remember someone once telling me that the hardness in life is what makes us who we are.
I've given this decision completely over to God. I know that he will lead us where we need to go. And I'm ready to accept that whichever way it goes, it is God's plan for us.
I honestly asked myself if I could keep my husband from his dreams just to keep him home with me and the answer is no. I married a musician and that means that our life might not always be predictable. It's not easy but I can do hard if it means my husband can live his dream.
There will be news soon, this week I hope, and as soon as it's all concrete I promise to share with all of you. For now, I would ask that you send prayers and good thoughts our way so that we can make the best decision for our family.